Awoke to smoldering fires

In my heart
In the yard

I am born of fire
Yet I fear the burn

Momentary Bitterness

Feels good to spew
In the dawning hours
When sleep has evaded me
Despite the best efforts of pills

Designed to dull the pain
And take me away...

In reality I only want for
Friendship and release
Of  this attachment
In a way that is good

What I Want

Is to hold you
But you won't be held

Like the cards you dealt
That ended our love game

I thought we had more
Moves and strategies
To share and to play

I Shed A Tear

I shed a tear as I change
:K to Kumar Plocher

Unable to look upon
That happy face
Without longing
Or sense of regret

I now know what it is to miss sleep
No rest for the rejected
I imagine you rest in peace
Free of the burden of me
As I mourn the detachment
That came so suddenly

"I care about you"
But all I hear is
I don't love you
And it crushes me

A Prayer For Blood

May it be stress
That's kept you away

I know what you wish
I have heard infinite pleas

But please...
Just bleed....

08.06.2012

Suddenly a standing invitation no longer stood.
A blushing fool ashamed of unrequited would.
I recoil in the face of my own doubt and fear.
I have felt the danger of having you so near.
And then not.

As You Walk Away To My Dismay

How still I stood stunned
In your abrupt about face

How did this all happen so fast
How could I not see it coming
Like high speed photography
The shock waves of your intent

I will never caress your skin
Nor feel your love against mine

It bears heavy right now
This pain and sorrow
A halo of illumination
A crown of humiliation

I am lost in knowing
The space you gifted me
Has ceased to exist
If it even ever did

Infinity holds me
As I gather my head
Hold onto my heart
Bathe it in light

Forgive my foolishness
In side-stepping instinct
Consumed and cast aside

Illusion that feels real
Isn't that what all this is...

In Transit

Venus in transit
The birds are too

A hawk lost a feather

In what would be my path

The crows followed as I headed home

Cackling a message as they flew

Dancing on the wind

Around and around

And back around again

All the while Venus seems to move
Across the face of the sun
And wild winds blew and blew

Sizzle Koo

My man's chest sizzles sensuously
Like his heavenly hash browns

Know Thy Beauty

In dreams I saw a cactus

It was sagging and discolored

It had forgotten its majesty

And lost its will to bloom 

Contentment Of Heart

Your body beside
Loving & warm
Evolving adoration
Mutual inspiration

Circles & Circles

Creation Unfolds
Knows no fear
Rolls out
Stretches on
Does the rounds
Rides the bends
And circles back
Around again

Adoration

Cosmic boners

Star shine sensuality

You fill me with your love

I surround you with mine