Ace of Cups

          Prince of Cups
                Princess of Cups
                        My Chalice
                              A palace
                                   Of preparation
                                            His love
                                                  Is my love
                                                        Is our love

Confusion Be Thy Name

What is the best move....
I want to press pause so I can really feel

What have we done girls...
To ourselves?

I wish I knew
What was true
What was right

Awoke to smoldering fires

In my heart
In the yard

I am born of fire
Yet I fear the burn

Momentary Bitterness

Feels good to spew
In the dawning hours
When sleep has evaded me
Despite the best efforts of pills

Designed to dull the pain
And take me away...

In reality I only want for
Friendship and release
Of  this attachment
In a way that is good

What I Want

Is to hold you
But you won't be held

Like the cards you dealt
That ended our love game

I thought we had more
Moves and strategies
To share and to play

I Shed A Tear

I shed a tear as I change
:K to Kumar Plocher

Unable to look upon
That happy face
Without longing
Or sense of regret

I now know what it is to miss sleep
No rest for the rejected
I imagine you rest in peace
Free of the burden of me
As I mourn the detachment
That came so suddenly

"I care about you"
But all I hear is
I don't love you
And it crushes me

A Prayer For Blood

May it be stress
That's kept you away

I know what you wish
I have heard infinite pleas

But please...
Just bleed....

08.06.2012

Suddenly a standing invitation no longer stood.
A blushing fool ashamed of unrequited would.
I recoil in the face of my own doubt and fear.
I have felt the danger of having you so near.
And then not.

As You Walk Away To My Dismay

How still I stood stunned
In your abrupt about face

How did this all happen so fast
How could I not see it coming
Like high speed photography
The shock waves of your intent

I will never caress your skin
Nor feel your love against mine

It bears heavy right now
This pain and sorrow
A halo of illumination
A crown of humiliation

I am lost in knowing
The space you gifted me
Has ceased to exist
If it even ever did

Infinity holds me
As I gather my head
Hold onto my heart
Bathe it in light

Forgive my foolishness
In side-stepping instinct
Consumed and cast aside

Illusion that feels real
Isn't that what all this is...

In Transit

Venus in transit
The birds are too

A hawk lost a feather

In what would be my path

The crows followed as I headed home

Cackling a message as they flew

Dancing on the wind

Around and around

And back around again

All the while Venus seems to move
Across the face of the sun
And wild winds blew and blew

Sizzle Koo

My man's chest sizzles sensuously
Like his heavenly hash browns

Know Thy Beauty

In dreams I saw a cactus

It was sagging and discolored

It had forgotten its majesty

And lost its will to bloom 

Contentment Of Heart

Your body beside
Loving & warm
Evolving adoration
Mutual inspiration

Circles & Circles

Creation Unfolds
Knows no fear
Rolls out
Stretches on
Does the rounds
Rides the bends
And circles back
Around again

Adoration

Cosmic boners

Star shine sensuality

You fill me with your love

I surround you with mine

The Gift Of Gifting

Jeremiah reappears
As Roxie and I take tea
He's been away a spell

I though of him the other day
He always swept the deck
"Always a sweeper," he says

He's been at Lake Mendocino
Until one night some Scuzzle
Tried to gut him with a knife

In the name of female honor
He took on an honorable scar
He shows us the winding wound

His spirits are high
Grateful to be alive
He is centered and glowing
Might be the perfect time

So, I offer to gift Her love
Bull Frog from his knees
Respectfully takes my hand
Goddess he calls me

For gifting that gift
The importance of it to him
In his younger days
He explains

Stories unfurl
I understand the history
He has with Her

Ripple

The gifts of Rose
Ripple outward
The gift is shared

Lights illuminate
Hearts anticipate

Ancient secrets
On Eternity's lips
In Infinity's ears

Hang On, Enjoy

I watch her sleep
This is what I wanted
To have her in my keep

I feel the weight of this place
But, I can't flee and still have her with me
What is for now must be

I feel momentarily afraid
So, I just breathe...

Wisdom Of The Blind Path

One step, and another

Without concern for

Leading myself

Wrongly ahead

Of myself

No Regrets, Just Dismay

My tone Your tone
Ripple effect
For good or bad

Lines crossed
Brows furrowed I was here for you
Even if it didn't seem that way

You just couldn't wait
Didn't get the chance to say
It wasn't my intention
For you to turn away

Anxiety Lurks So Remember

To:

Breathe
Love

Release
Fear

Flow
Positively

Keeping this in mind I still feel uneasy
And suspect that falling asleep,
Normally such an easy task;
Could be problematic tonight

Mind over matter right...

Aidan

I just wasn't ready for pursuit
But then neither were you
Once, perhaps ever

Maybe the fruit didn't fall
As far from the tree
As the oceanic expanse
Between

Lösenordet

One must really dig a person
To make up a password
Based on them

Your heart beats gently against my back
Two flames born of the same fire
In this moment of contented desire
There is truly nothing I lack

Macke

Gamla vän
Förra detta älskare
Av så många år
Visst känns det som igår
Om det håller jag med

Jag älskar dig
Du älskar mig
Vår kärlek ser
Annorlunda ut nu

Du undrar om jag är kär
Det vågar jag erkänna
Eftersom det är du
Som har vågat
Ställa den svåra frågan

Och så tillägger jag
Att jag vill känna kärlek
För alla vettu
"You're mad" säger du som vanligt
Och skrattar
Med ett leende som hörs

Mitt i natten
Pratar vi
Om det tunga
Om det lätta

Strolling through dewy clover
In the company of vines
And an arching rainbow

We reflect the spectral
Radiating light
Hearts true and kind

Flow of love
Goes out
Comes in
Circling 'round again

Unified Sensation

Our lover's union
Is a journey of expression

Mandalas of pleasure
Orgasmic manifestations

Captured Moments

Adoring fingers trace infinity
Over your beating heart
Hands lovingly glide
Over the warmth of your belly
As it rises and falls
Softly, next to mine

The Coffee Chemist

The science of coffee.
The art of attraction.

"There is a science to this
'Cause if you do it wrong
It can be weak or too strong."

His coffee chemistry doesn't require
Socks on both feet.

Measurements aren't always
Going to be precise.

Hot water can fly, making a mess.
The results astound, nevertheless.

Pheromones of Possession

Territorial scratching
Certainly has its place
But...
Relaxed retraction, more so

Endless Love

Many times unsure
I'd see you once more
But, here we are
And it's sheer bliss

Wooing one other
Again and again
Sights and sounds
Rainbow frequencies
Pulsating passions
Rivers of energy flow
...and flow

I can't help but wonder
Will forever feel this amazing
When I am no longer just visiting

Shine on

Expansive existence, unimaginably wide
With endless nooks and crannies in which to hide
Wherein one might understand with ease
Just how easy infinity is to please

Tempting fate to find it's not too late
These paths were laid out by those before you
The divine patterns that resonate
Consist in part of their multicolored hue

Never fear boundaries already in place
Points of light deviate freely in this space

The Agreement

On a ride that moves so fast
A first breath can only spell a last

Forms take shape and arise
It's cellular compromise

Which will stay on and which will soon go
A greater good in life's eternal flow

Coaxing separation
Assuring reunion

Fearless love, the leap of faith
Forgotten among human wraith

No, there is no true demise
In light that illuminates the eyes

A symbolic heart I did gently trace
Lovingly above the beat of my own

A shiny reminder of infinite love within

Momentary Melancholy

You always did wear sadness
Gathered tightly around you

You'd to say I could reach through
That my light permeated depths of despair
In truth, the bitter never really gave way
Only achieving temporary departure

A love, loyal and true
Damn shame you can't genuinely give it
...yet...

Even if you think you do

Strong Brew

I like my men like I like my coffee...
Like I like my tea...
Brewed strong and heavy on the sweet.

The Universal Reveals and Conceals

Interrupted bliss and momentary rifts
Interpretation is tricky

I Know That I Know

I should never fear
Losing my place
In a Universe
All encompassing

You gave me...

...a first virtual kiss, sparking desire for an analogue smooch.

Illusions Divine

Life and Death intertwined
A lover's embrace

Thin veils flow and subside
Turbulent waves effortlessly roll aside
Fueling creation beyond comprehension
Approaching familiar doorways
Cut from the tree of life

An arduous journey
Universal love
A long and winding tale
Fruition of infinite proportion

Pulsating rhythms of pure essence reveal
Mandalas of mayhem and such intricate beauty

To Infinity and Beyond

Thank you...

Every time I showed myself to you
You showed yourself to me too

Death, a tapestry upon which life is woven
A dynamic backdrop of ebb and flow
Expressing the dance of creation
Duality exists in and of itself

Ziola My Queen

Nearly 18, sans claws, and with a bum hip
She takes these cats on!
Hissin' & spittin'
Black blur of furred fury frenzy

She's struttin' her stuff now,
Ambushing her carrot with
Predatory precision

A Sullied Notion of Infinity

People who know damn well the truth about infinite unity
And choose not to give a fuck about honoring it
Honoring the moment and the moment's moments
Scare the shit out of me...

But, then again what is there to fear
When every point requires a catalyst for progress

To build upon itself and express something beyond

Image Ninjas

Covert operations
Sneaky fucks breaching boundaries

Just Breathe

There is in all reality
No truth in a concept of loss.

You were born of love, for love
Your drive is inspiration, creation
Go forth and give it all!

The Issue of Romantic Duality

Waves of emotion
Currents of contentment
A flutter of heart sensation
Raises a flag of concern

Funny how a thing can seem almost effortless
Until its difficulty is addressed...

Reactance

Maybe it's true
That somewhere inside
Exists a desire
A comfortable wish
For familiar foreign terrain

Like the last time I touched your skin
Or when you last flashed me a smile

But, right now, and mostly,
I just feel so far removed
....from the concept of you

What dangers lie in uncertainty?
Oh the irony...

Take a penny
Leave a Penny
For our thoughts

Ascend, descend such soft earth
Dynamic and wise

Navigating slippery slopes
We earn our keep

Summoning Black Trumpets
Hedgehogs too

Mysteries incarnate
Life and death
Honor and truth

Snow Blind

I've known for some time
That you never held me back
That only I could allow such defeat

Dreams are nice, you'd say
But you couldn't foresee
My following mine
Made any sense for me

I thought I knew your worth
I thought you knew mine
But, how could we....how could I

Consumed with battling the freeze
All the while unaware
How I was snow blind

Heart Strings

Strummed heart strings resonate
Note after note
Key after key

Heart muscles, when relaxed,
Vibrate love's frequency

Pulsations of infinite curves
Start to take shape
Begin to be felt

Before a springing back
Steady's the pattern's flow...

Keeping in Mind

One way or another
Attachment releases its grasp
Detachment is only excruciating
When we allow it be

Polarity
Paradox

Gotta open up in order to receive
Leaps of faith and penetrable bounds

Beyond late
Rolling up the road
I realized two things

One: the party was obviously still leaping
Two: I'd have to back out the long ass curvy driveway

Not smooth like that 30 year-old brandy,
though it certainly softened the ride

The wheels will turn
And the gears will grind

How you groove...
...is a state of mind

Let's Forage!

The ground
Heavy beneath
Soaked with readiness

Reemergence looms
At the ready, awaiting cues

Life from death and death from life
Renewing force
Constant creation

Let's forage and thrive!

And so it begins
Ingrained resistance
A voice of reason
Chiming determinedly in

Consider this
Ponder that

The paradoxes of existence
Never cease to amaze

Our slowdive...
Testament to your depths

All surface tension breaks, eventually

Ecstasy both awaits and exists
In liquid fires and wanting desires

The Kneeding

"I totally kneed you,"
You murmured apologetically.

        "K N E E D"

Spelling it out
Specifying your meaning.

I didn't mistake you.
I was indeed, kneed.

Your clarification both amused
And reinforced...
The world totally ":kneeds"
Word geeks like you.

Full Moon In Your Backyard

Full moon in your backyard 


Chiseled peak of a redwood  
Stands strong, rises high
Caressing voluptuous luminescence
In shadowy mist and rose tinted sky 

The Universe has little use for an inferiority complex...

   Superb frequencies
      Flowing experience
   Equivalent exchange
       Resonating heart strings

A succession of pleasures
& ripening delights

I boldly behold
I warmly invite

Feeling your feel
& tasting your taste

Natural Infinty

Perfect geometry 

Gnarled symmetry 

Towering trees, bushes low

Have felt my presence

Have felt my love flow

Vibrations carried gently

On many a majestic wing

Dispersed a spectral melody

My heart did dare to sing 

Nature, I do believe

Vic's

Cocktails, speculations
Observations on the side

Together
as well as apart

Differences made
Stories exchanged

We honor connections
And enjoy the ride

Happy Thursday

Rotten dogs, rotten logs
Turkeys, quail...
& black trumpets
Oh my!

In A World Tinted Rose

Surrender to the sublime
Curvaceous flows of space and time
May we always know blissful repose
In a world tinted rose

Dreamy Dreams

Dreamy dreams

Mind's eye sees
Fantastical imagery

Sleep, how I adore thee

Cosmic Love

Caressing, confessing, and opening wide
Experience of the sacred spaces inside

Wherein Infinity itself
Infinitely intertwines

I Know You Feel Let Down...

....and when your
pissy fit is through
I will still love you
And you'll still love me too

Parched

In surrounding mist
Droplets form
Showers begin to fall

Thus begins the storm
Quenching a parched terrain

Newly moistened earth
Once more breathes freely
Its delicate flowers, unencumbered
Gently reveal their majesty

Hidden silently beneath the surface
Their beauty
Inevitability

Unnecessary Gift

Sad to find this little shell of a bird: an unnecessary gift the cats won't be gathering up.

A few cool shots I came across...

The Art of Letting Go

This new found lightness

And movement of ease 

Little sparks beginning to take

And in time, combustion!